I saw my RE for an ultrasound today. I have two mature follicles 20-21mm on right-raisin (ovary) and could surge for ovulation pretty much anytime. I was given the option of a trigger shot to help control when ovulation happens in order to plan for an insemination so I took it. The shot arrives by tomorrow evening. The donor will be shipping to us given the short time frame. I will inseminate at home on Saturday. Possibly tomorrow too. Holy shit. I am freaking out so much right now.
After 3 months of no attempts whatsoever I feel so unprepared for this. I didn’t expect to be ready for an insemination so soon. I’ve had no signs from my body that ovulation is on it’s way. And I sucked at taking the Letrozole, starting it a day late and underdosing myself at least one day accidentally. So I was expecting to hear that ovulation was still a ways off.
I feel really strongly that this one will work. And that has me freaking out about pregnancy stuff and about being a (gulp) mom. What if I have twins????? If I get pregnant I will have to tell people I am pregnant. What if we aren’t ready to be parents?
UGH, I know I will get over my freak out and will be excited but holy shit I did not expect to feel this way at all. This is what I want, right? This is what I have spent months actively working towards. It’s what SO and I talked about for our future. Right?